Chaos

I'm terribly busy today! I was engaged in a meeting offsite the whole morning til 14:00. After a quick lunch by pouring all the food and water into my stomach, I answered few phone calls and called several parties for some projects follow up. Then I rushed for another meeting at 15:00 til 18:00. Ran back to my seat for a few urgent calls without hesitation, I sticked to the chair without a stop.

I talked and discussed with many people, briefing my temp to help me on preparing sths for tomorrow mega event and hook up in my work again.

I found I was a robot, a machine, a non-human engine. Only the jobs in my brain and feel extremely excited and nervous about the result and the timeline. I'm nearly crazy, loads of work, numerous meetings and trainings. All of these things overwhelming me, bringing me to the an edge where I can't find the positive energy but only stress and pressure.

I lost the temptation on food, and don't feel thirsty at all. My eyes full of tears, the tears come from the tired body without emotion as ingredients.

I almost lost my heart, my feelings and the memories on you.

And these things keep on vanishing invisibily.

P.S. Someone just turned off the light and leave me in darkness! Damn it!